Tried not to cry.
Or at least see how long I can tahan.
When You spoke through her that I, like many others, have an acceptance issue about my family, myself and I think after that, it must have been extended to friends or anyone...
I was shattered.
The wall around me just crumbled down, literally.
How could I not have known or realised that?
I don't need and I should never be ashamed of my father, my younger than me step-mother, my 3 step-siblings for they are all made in Your image.
I thank You that I have moved from 'hatred' towards them before receiving You to now learning to communicate with each of them.
You know it's not always easy, BUT You know I can do more for You.
And this is the purpose of my coming to You, deeper, having the courage to bare myself, to learn more about myself from You, to better RELATE to my family for I am reminded that I'm the only light for the time being.
I wanna be that light for You, to open the floodgates of salvation to my whole family, Lord!
She told me her testimony.
It's through small steps of obedience to You that salvation came to her parents!
I wanna claim that for my family, Lord!
So, it's nothing about me, I have already been set free by You, of the past, for the present and the future.
I can love cos You are Love.
I am loved cos You first loved me.
Accept that Lord, You gave me this family and I thank You for it.
Accept that I am born in this family for a purpose.
Accept that I have a physical condition that I can't change but I definitely can do my part in maximizing to my fullest potential with You, for You have made me.
I am fearfully and wonderfully made and my soul knows that very well.
Will I trade a new body for not knowing You?
No, I rather be me, knowing how loved I am, how much I can give to many others.
Never about me anymore.
You have taken care of that.
How could I not have known or realised that?
I don't need and I should never be ashamed of my father, my younger than me step-mother, my 3 step-siblings for they are all made in Your image.
I thank You that I have moved from 'hatred' towards them before receiving You to now learning to communicate with each of them.
You know it's not always easy, BUT You know I can do more for You.
And this is the purpose of my coming to You, deeper, having the courage to bare myself, to learn more about myself from You, to better RELATE to my family for I am reminded that I'm the only light for the time being.
I wanna be that light for You, to open the floodgates of salvation to my whole family, Lord!
She told me her testimony.
It's through small steps of obedience to You that salvation came to her parents!
I wanna claim that for my family, Lord!
So, it's nothing about me, I have already been set free by You, of the past, for the present and the future.
I can love cos You are Love.
I am loved cos You first loved me.
Accept that Lord, You gave me this family and I thank You for it.
Accept that I am born in this family for a purpose.
Accept that I have a physical condition that I can't change but I definitely can do my part in maximizing to my fullest potential with You, for You have made me.
I am fearfully and wonderfully made and my soul knows that very well.
Will I trade a new body for not knowing You?
No, I rather be me, knowing how loved I am, how much I can give to many others.
Never about me anymore.
You have taken care of that.
