30/365 Awesome people

An awesome day with awesome people. 
Finally, finally, I have a sense of what home is like.

All different, with different gifts, strengths and weaknesses.

I pray for us, for unity in Christ.
Thanks guys, we have a race to run! 💪

30/365
#thegang
#inChristweunite

29/365 Remember your birthday

Thanks family and friends for your best wishes and prayers for my birthday! 

Your every wish and prayer is valuable to me. 

Though some of you may not know me well, those who know me know my flaws. Everything that I share, I pray you see my heart for humanity: for you and me.

There are so many things that I need to work on. Most importantly is to exercise greater self-control, to spend time with God. My birthday prayer since last year has been this: that one day abortion will be a thing of the past. My heart is for the unborn, many who never got to celebrate their birthdays.

Who am I that I get to live till now? I need to go about my Father's business. 

Thanks for putting up with my many posts. Only God convicts but by God's wisdom, I pray to offer another perspective. Thank you for your love 

29/365
#rememberyourbirthday

28/365 I am willing to love my family

I thank God for every family, broken but always having the chance to reconcile. I told one of my twin nieces, we cannot cut off from our family or from anyone.
I speak not from an ivory tower but from hard knocks of life. Not easy to the flesh but God's will be done.

I thank God for excellent health for all of us, especially my father. We can disagree but we must still love one another.

Finally I have a clear conscience to promote a healthy family. Not because I'm doing well but because I'm willing to love my family.

#twentyeightofthreehundredandsixtyfive
#reconciliation
#loveourfamily

27/365 God speaks but are we hearing?

God speaks through songs. God speaks through the Ho family for reunion dinner 1 and dinner 2 with my father and step-siblings. God speaks through my ex-student who said she missed me ❤ God speaks through the imperfections and says perfect is He.
God always speaks. Just whether we want to hear or not. Treasure our family! That I'm learning.

There is an endless song
Echoes in my soul
I hear the music ring

And though the storms may come
I am holding on
To the rock I cling

How can I keep from singing Your praise
How can I ever say enough
How amazing is Your love
How can I keep from shouting Your name
I know I am loved by the King
And it makes my heart want to sing

I will lift my eyes
In the darkest night
For I know my Savior lives

And I will walk with You
Knowing You'll see me through
And sing the songs You give

I can sing in the troubled times
Sing when I win
I can sing when I lose my step
And fall down again
I can sing 'cause You pick me up
Sing 'cause You're there
I can sing 'cause You hear me, Lord
When I call to You in prayer
I can sing with my last breath
Sing for I know
That I'll sing with the angels
And the saints around the throne

#twentysevenofthreehundredandsixtyfive
#treasureourfamily
#谢谢何家欢
#Blessedone

When facts become debatable

Facts become debatable when they interfere with what we want.

Eg : the issue of when life begins.

Baby comes at an inconvenient time, sorry, life begins only after 9 months.

'Pro-life'. But if they are rape or incest victims, baby should die because the mother cannot take the social stigma. Shouldn't we enhance public education instead of choosing abortion?

Encourage the mother to keep the baby is committing murder of the mother. So intentionally killing a child under any circumstance is not?

Where is personal responsibility?

Oh abortion is not murder since when life begins is debatable.

A sperm is not a human being. Only when an egg is fertilized by a sperm will another human person be formed. So a sperm is a cell, like the egg. You can't compare a sperm to a baby! Sperm cells die every day but a baby is like you and me!

Conclusion : Facts become debatable when they interfere with what we want.

26/365 雨过就会天晴

The dark clouds came, the storms came. Decisions were made and here comes the aftereffects.

To face the consequences of our every decision is tough.

Learning to wait, to say no, to stick to principles 
are things that I'm learning. Learning to trust God in the storm is all I need to do.

上帝是有原则的，我说。

My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials,
knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience.

But let patience have its perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking nothing.

If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all liberally and without reproach, and it will be given to him.

But let him ask in faith, with no doubting, for he who doubts is like a wave of the sea driven and tossed by the wind. (James 1)

#twentysixofthreehundredandsixtyfive
#上帝的原则
#雨过就会天晴

25/365 Our leftover 'love' for God

But no man can tame the tongue. It is an unruly evil, full of deadly poison.

With it we bless our God and Father, and with it we curse men, who have been made in the similitude of God.

Out of the same mouth proceed blessing and cursing. My brethren, these things ought not to be so.

(James 3)

The book of James is one of my favourite books. So much wisdom and warning in it. I have been thinking about these verses. God knows and has already told us that our heart is deceitful.

On one hand, we proclaim Christ. On the other hand, we say, "Sorry God, I want this. I don't want this. I believe in this. I don't believe in this, even when it is obviously there, right there, in Your word."

Any wonder that we bless You but we curse the people we don't like?

One leg in Christ, one leg loves the world. Cannot offend people but OK to offend God. I try to imagine myself in Your shoes. What kind of love is this?

Our leftover 'love'. How many couples can tolerate such adultery?

#twentyfiveofthreehundredandsixtyfive
#thegriefofGod
#inconsistentlife

24/365 Unconventional daughter of God

Wow, this is so apt!

The challenges I face now are nothing compared to my dramatic past. Of course there are days when things go wrong and normally I would complain to God. I still do. I just felt I needed to clarify the misconceptions people have of tutors. Or rather, I thank God that I'm an unconventional educator.

I don't earn big bucks nor do I need to. I don't want my life to be chasing after wealth and lose my spiritual wealth. Therefore I'm a full-time servant for Christ and a part-time tutor to earn a living. I enjoy teaching kids, stretching them and praying that for every kid I teach, I leave God in them. That's value-added service! 
They will do well in their studies when they have their software ready. 

I thank God that because of Him, I can see things differently. He protects me from falls, He lifts my spirit.
He is my Abba and that is my greatest treasure.

I pray you will be curious to know this awesome Man in my life. You will never regret letting Him into your life.

#twentyfourofthreehundredandsixtyfive
#fulltimeforChrist
#AVA

The way people treat educators is appalling.

First, the kids are promoted to a higher level each year but parents expect you not to increase the tuition fees. Worse, they lower it and we are talking about 'O' Level Higher Chinese. So easy to teach meh? And I need to take a train to a place not so near home and need to take a bus too.
A labourer is worth his wages. Do to others what you want others to do to you.

Then, some want to have a test lesson. Sure. But I don't do magic in one lesson. You either learn to trust or go shopping for other willing tutors.

Thirdly, a teacher/tutor is just one factor that contributes to good academic results. My more than 15 years of teaching experience has confirmed that family and school environment, the student's attitude, behaviour and study patterns etc contribute to success. And success is not defined by grades only.

I can try my very best to accommodate to your requests but I treasure my principles. If you don't respect the value of education, I do.

23/365 I can be helpless in front of You

Before I received Christ, I bought many motivational books to fill a God-shaped vacuum.

"You can do it!"
"Believe in yourself!"

How to believe in myself when I fail miserably?

Today I said, "I thank You Lord, that I can be helpless in front of You."

And I was smiling and feeling joyful as I said this. 😀

I learnt about 'self-actualization' in school. Our kids still learn that in school. That's why we cannot fail, we cannot be rejected, we cannot be scolded, we cannot be treated unfairly etc because we are gods.

"For what am I but a single breath
That only You sustain
The less I get in the way,
The more the Master can let the music play"

#twentythreeofthreehundredandsixtyfive
#whoisthemaster
#Godactualization

22/365 看水的日子

看水的日子。。。
God's comfort.
I thank God for this young lady, for her birth more than 17 years ago, such that I woke up, knowing that I cannot be an irresponsible aunt anymore.

I was blasting Corrinne May's song "Your song".

Let me be your instrument
Let me be your voice
Let me be the reservoir
Where thirsty hearts rejoice
Let me be the hand
That wipes the tears away
Oh Lord,
If it be your will
Let me be your song

And niece asked a few times, "你是不是故意的?"

Haha, reservoir! And God just love to let me see eagles. I saw one circling around, then soaring straight ahead like an aeroplane! Trust me, it's an eagle though I asked the gal, "Aeroplane or eagle ah???"

Then a wedding couple went past, the bride said, "nice song!" Then they were just very near us, while we kaypo, and I guess they must have felt awkward...

So eventually we left. Ohhh, no sunset...

We met a nasty driver, we met a very nice driver. Some unfairness but God gave in another instance.
I told the young lady, it's about having a balanced view.

Bad day, good day, our choice.
Praise God, dark clouds, no rain!
And now, in the shelter, it's raining 

#twentytwoofthreehundredandsixtyfive
#看水的日子
#客观

21/365 Our seven eleven

Boy's soul was downcast when we met. It is my conviction that God meet us at our needs, just like how Jesus addressed the underlying issues of the Samaritan woman at the well. I used to think that all I have to do is to share testimonies and people will be convinced of God's power and love. While this may work for some, for others like my boy, unless he can witness God's workings in his life, he is not convinced.

I prayed. God, help me to talk to him. Miracles just happened. I thought I have to talk a lot to lift up his spirit but all I needed to do was to direct him to the verses God directed to me. We built on what we had gone through in previous sessions and today, we focused on Matthew 7:11.

“If you then, being evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father who is in heaven give good things to those who ask Him! God will give you what He knows is best for you. No need to compare with others. Unbelief is a sin.

Suddenly he ohhhh. That's why God didn't give him xxx.
He said he's very sensitive, then understood this has pros n cons. He is sensitive so that he can understand how others feel. Suddenly he came up with the answers to his problems n all I had to do was merely to guide.

I don't have to give answers. I believe in every person's ability to generate options. That's what our sound mind is for. The answers are all in His Word.

This is tough work. Easy way is to direct people to attend church and please study on your own. To journey with someone needs supernatural strength and His wisdom and discernment. No material gain. I only want His "Well-done"!

Why are you cast down, O my soul?
And why are you disquieted within me?
Hope in God;
For I shall yet praise Him,
The help of my countenance and my God.

(Psalm 42)

#twentyoneofthreehundredandsixtyfive
#加油

20/365 The problem of fear lies with those who fear man

So much fear and power attributed to one man.

One man, like us, whose every breath is held in the might of God.

“And behold, I am coming quickly, and My reward is with Me, to give to every one according to his work.

“I am the Alpha and the Omega, the Beginning and the End, the First and the Last.”

(Revelation 22)

The LORD is for me; I will not fear; What can man do to me?

It is better to trust in the LORD
Than to put confidence in man.

(Psalm 118)

So the problem of fear lies with those who fear man.

#twentyofthreehundredandsixtyfive
#trumpismerelyaman
#fearGodnotman

19/365 It is well with my soul

Wheeled into the train cabin and it rained. The last time it poured after I reached home. So many of such instances that I am OK even if I'm caught in the rain because God has been so good to me. 

It poured near my student's place. I tried to call a cab, no answer. I checked Grab and Uber, surprised at the high prices at such timing. Was about to book one of them when kid's mum offered to send me. Wow, I'm touched and very grateful! And she was caught in a jam!

I bumped into my ex-colleague while waiting. We talked about the past, of how much we have changed. She said I have come a long way. Yeah. I miss my another ex-colleague who is like a big brother to me. He used to crack lots of jokes to make the crying Serene laugh.

We lost contact and he is one of the three people I hope to meet again to say, "I'm very well now, praise be to God!"

I believe one day we will meet again.

#nineteenofthreehundredandsixtyfive
#itiswellwithmysoul
#wewillmeetoneday

The TRUTH that you will not get to read on mainstream media

This letter was sent to The Straits Times Forum but was not published.

There are two sexes: male and female. No amount of hormones or cosmetic surgery can effect a biological change of sex. Feelings, no matter how strong, cannot change this fact ("Under-21s go online to buy hormone pills"; 16 Jan).

Adolescence is a time of rapid physical changes and strong sexual urges. Gender confusion may occur during the "identity crisis" stage. Adolescents and young adults may have an unstable self-image, poor self-esteem and an ill-defined sense of self. 

Personality, coupled with environmental factors can cause the delusion that being the opposite sex is preferable to assigned sex at birth. There are no lab tests or medical findings that can even prove the existence of transgenderism.

It is worrying that these youths self-medicate, disregarding their health. How can parents let minors make irreversible changes to their bodies based on feelings not substantiated with facts? 

Desperate patients seek psychological and medical services for alternative help, not affirmation for their confusion. Does a person with depression seek help to be more depressed? 

Let us not spread transgenderism as the "contagion of mass delusion". Every person is precious, way above his struggles. He deserves to be told the truth in love.

http://www.thepublicdiscourse.com/2017/01/18465/?utm_source=The+Witherspoon+Institute&utm_campaign=3dd3201765-RSS_EMAIL_CAMPAIGN&utm_medium=email&utm_term=0_15ce6af37b-3dd3201765-84105537

18/365 The awakening

From 2006 to 2014, I lived in a beautiful dream. It was perhaps a necessary transition from a life of meaninglessness to finally knowing that I am deeply loved by a God whom I cannot see yet is more real than anything visible.

From the last quarter of 2014 to 2015, I attended some talks on homosexuality, abortion, apologetics on Christianity etc. I am no stranger to social issues since I studied social work in NUS and worked in NCSS for nearly two years. However, after I left the social work industry and became a full-time tutor, my mind became focused on helping kids to achieve well academically. Almost eight years were spent on building the vertical relationship between God and me. I did not realize that I became out of touch with what was happening to our society. These social issues are almost not spoken of in church. It was mind-blowing to know how much we have been shielded from reality and how critical it is for the body of Christ to unite against the eroding values of our society.

"If our faith is unaccompanied by deeds, it would quickly turn into mere outward forms of personal piety, quite divorced from the common issues of daily living."

#eighteenofthreehundredandsixtyfiverecap
#excited
#autobiography

17/365 The truth that our national newspaper will not publish

Examples of the truth that our national newspaper will not publish:

-Transgenderism is delusion. Even when our under-21s self-medicate with hormonal medicine bought online, the conscience of editors is not pricked. Even when it is common sense that biological sex cannot be altered, people who are desperate, broken and confused do not get to read the truth on mainstream media. And so the deception deepens and more lives are destroyed...

(http://www.straitstimes.com/…/under-21s-go-online-to-buy-ho…)

-The consequences of premarital sex, divorce, single parenthood etc on health, children, family and society. These issues are recognised as a trend but the focus is not on the victims or the repercussions on our nation.

-Abortion is always portrayed as an option but the media will not tell you that the unborn are robbed of their lives and the women suffer from post-abortion trauma. Abortion is murder but they will not tell you.

Etc.

I thank God for alternative news. For social media. Because we must tell the truth in love.

Will publish an unpublished truth in a few days' time to prove my point.

Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they shall be filled. (Matthew 5)

#seventeenofthreehundredandsixtyfive
#whereisconscience

16/365 Authenticity. Vulnerability. Accountability (AVA)

The people rise to give Him praise. They attest to God's power and goodness and kick death in his face. Are you, like me, sensing that the Kingdom is advancing?

Come out. That's what we are doing. Be what we are meant to be: salt and light.

Authenticity. Vulnerability. Accountability.

I believe that when we are sincere, even when we are mocked at or being taken advantage of, it's OK. It starts with us, people who follow Christ.

Thank God for giving me a sound mind, to love and treasure every moment in my life. 😁

#sixteenofthreehundredandsixtyfive
#comeoutandshine
#AVA

If I want change, I drive that change

I’ve made my own opportunities where I can, and I have a duty like everyone else to give a little something back. I realised very early on that if I want change, I need to be the one driving that change.
-Richard Kuppusamy, physically challenged.

15/365 Wonderfully made Serene

Dawn the photographer: Eternity is too high a price to pay for a comfortable life.

This sentence touched me and encouraged me to run this race on earth, with eternity already in the here and now. Thanks Dawn! 😘

Have to confess that I'm still rather conscious of my body. But praise be to God that I am now not ashamed to admit that this is my weakness. God knows the challenge and so He brings people to show me what I always don't want to see.

The world says, "Hide in shame. You look weird!" And the ignorant laugh.

God says, "You are indeed wonderfully made Serene!"😀❤

And the case is closed.

#fifteenofthreehundredandsixtyfive
#bodyimage
#wonderfullymade

14/365 Sisters' love

I thank God for my 3 lovely sisters, especially my 3rd sister whom I can celebrate birthday with every year, because our birth dates are two days apart tho of course I'm younger haha😁

我们的姐妹情得来不易，it became stronger after I came to Christ, after we become older each year. 三姐 Christina，I want to celebrate every birthday with you for as long as the Lord wills and I appreciate all 3 of you, deep in my heart.
Ultimately, family is given by God and I thank Him for all of you. ❤

Thank you for loving me. I learn to love you gals better because of Jesus. 这是我的见证。😘❤

#fourteenofthreehundredandsixtyfive
#Godlovesfamily

13/365 God loves with an everlasting love

In my observation all these years, most Christians are still stuck at ‘God and me’. They are so preoccupied with how needy they are that they fail to look at the needs of others. Ten years in Christ and I am still hearing the same stuff in church.

Does God love me? (“I have loved you with an everlasting love; Therefore with lovingkindness I have drawn you” Jeremiah 31:3b,c)

How much does He love me? (“that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith; that you, being rooted and grounded in love, may be able to comprehend with all the saints what is the width and length and depth and height— to know the love of Christ which passes knowledge; that you may be filled with all the fullness of God.” Ephesians 3:17-19),

Why can’t I love God now? Why does God seem so far away? Why can’t I feel God? (“And because lawlessness will abound, the love of many will grow cold.” Matthew 24:12, "Therefore submit to God. Resist the devil and he will flee from you. Draw near to God and He will draw near to you." James 4: 7-8a)

Will God forgive me? (“For if you forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses.” Matthew 6:14)

Will God leave me? (“Be strong and of good courage, do not fear nor be afraid of them; for the Lord your God, He is the One who goes with you. He will not leave you nor forsake you.” Deuteronomy 3:6)

The answers are non-exhaustive in His word. If we love God and believe in His word, why so much doubts? It is because we are still sitting at the throne of our hearts. The King is outside, patiently waiting until the day of His wrath.

#thirteenofthreehundredandsixtyfive
#Godloveswithaneverlastinglove
#greatestlovestoryevertold

Out of Hiding

Come out of hiding
You're safe here with Me
There's no need to cover
What I already see

You've got your reasons
But I hold your peace
You've been on lockdown
And I hold the key

'Cause I loved you before you knew it was love
And I saw it all, still I chose the cross
And you were the one that I was thinking of
When I rose from the grave

Now rid of the shackles, My victory's yours
I tore the veil for you to come close
There's no reason to stand at a distance anymore
You're not far from home

I'll be your lighthouse
When you're lost at sea
And I will illuminate
Everything

No need to be frightened 
By intimacy
No, just throw off your fear
And come running to Me

'Cause I loved you before you knew it was love
And I saw it all, still I chose the cross
And you were the one that I was thinking of
When I rose from the grave
Now rid of the shackles, My victory's yours
I tore the veil for you to come close
There's no reason to stand at a distance anymore
You're not far from home
Keep on coming

And oh as you run
What hindered love
Will only become
Part of the story
(4X)

Baby, you're almost home now
Please don't quit now
You're almost home to Me
(3X) 
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XFkDqQtfs0w&feature=share

12/365 Blessed assurance

One prayer by me, another by someone I don't know. 😀 Pray that your heart desires what God desires.

No need to question how much God loves us
because it is written in His word.

Whether we love Him or not is also clearly written in His word.

Let us not spend our life questioning what is obvious but resolve to love Him, love others as ourselves.

#twelveofthreehundredandsixtyfive
#blessedassurance
#NTU